Often on the quest of expansion, healing or self development, I have seen and experienced this disappointment in oneself that comes from the expectation that we will someday 'arrive' at enlightenment. That once reaching 'enlightenment' we won't ever lose our temper, make poor choices, or feel any negative emotions again. Perhaps it's from the gurus we put on a pedestal and see embodying perfection in the public sphere. Perhaps it's from the books we read that present one aspect of reality. Or perhaps it's from the paradigm that many of our cultures focus on the destination, arrival, or acquisition of things, rather than the journey itself. But this is at odds with the nature of life itself which is in constant flux and cycles.
Let go of the expectation that you should, could or will ever remain in a constant enlightened state. Like my friend Yogesh once told me:
“Life by nature goes up and down, in the hospital the only time things are flat is when you’re dead”.
In recognition of this nature, we must release ourselves from the idea that we must reach a certain state of mind and then remain there. No. Instead, may we celebrate the times we reach that nirvana, rather than count the times we fall down.
As Alexander Pope once said “to err is human; to forgive, divine”. So, let us accept that we and everyone we know make mistakes, forgive ourselves and others for our imperfections, and to cherish our honourable efforts instead.
Take the time right now to say to yourself (out loud or internally) -"Thank you for all that you do, and all that you try to do. I know you're trying your best, I see you, and I love you." You can try saying it to someone who needs to hear it too. See how it feels.
Keep trying, keep your head up, AND remember to meet your efforts with compassion.
~Wishing you a peaceful journey, wherever it may take you <3